Joy is different from happiness and unhappiness.
Ego, when it feels pampered, it feels happy. I liked this. This “I” business. In this ego pampering that is not joy. Because you like to drink today and tomorrow you don’t like to have a headache. It has the double side of I like and I don’t like. You like something through your ego, dislike through your super ego. So it is a one point and there are two faces, one is happiness and another is unhappiness. Joy is beyond. Joy is a drama is a seer, it is a witness. You see a drama. You know it’s a drama going on. You just watch it as a drama. You’re not involved and you are seeing it and enjoying it. You are crying if you seeing something, you’re weeping but you know you are not that, it’s a drama. Witness. Your spirit is the witness and when you become the spirit you become the witness. You become the witness. For example, you are seeing something through a window. There is something else in the window for example. Now you enter inside the room and you see through the window. Your conditioning is like one way arising in you as a thought, which comes from the past. It rises again and another thought comes up and goes in the past. First the past thought is there and then another future thought is there. You see the thought rising but you can’t see it disappearing. In between that is the present. That’s the place that’s established, that present is established when your attention becomes enlightened by the spirit. Either you think of the future or of the past. But I say none. At this moment, at the present. You cannot stand there because your spirit is not enlightened. Because spirit is the present. When you get your Realization, you find that you are not thinking of the future or the past, you are just enjoying.
Everything becomes different. Life becomes a drama and the joy of it starts coming out and you really enjoy small, small things here and there and you really understand how much joy was lost before Realization. This is not a mental thing that gives you joy but the joy flows on you from your head and just like he said, cool thing starts flowing down. As some people have a feeling of attention rising up, it’s the same way, a cool sort of thing, flow of joy you feel in your whole body. Sometimes this cool breeze that rises in the head also starts becoming like a fountain pouring down that joy.
03.04.1981
